I mentioned in my About Me Page that I sometimes suffer from sleep paralysis. A lot of you may have heard of it.
To someone who has never experienced it, it is hard to explain just how scary it is.
Looking back, I can figure out that the first time it happened was when I was about 12. I felt something heavy which seemed to be moving across my chest. I didn’t feel too scared that time, because my mind told me it must be our cat. It was only in the morning that I realised the cat had been out all night. I told my parents about it and they just passed it off as a nightmare. Maybe they had never heard of such a thing themselves.
It didn’t happen to me again for many years. I was in my thirties in fact. This time I knew it wasn’t just a bad dream. I got the feeling that there was a presence in the room, although I couldn’t see it clearly. I tried to move but I couldn’t. I tried to shout out but I couldn’t. It only lasted for about a minute, if that, but it seemed like a lifetime. Whilst it was happening, it was so, so scary.
I have read lots about what causes it. Knowing it happens to others and that there is nothing wrong with my mental state does not make the episodes any less scary. I thought I would be able to control my fear knowing the facts but it doesn’t work that way.
I can go for long periods without having an episode (sometimes a year or more), then maybe have a few within the space of a few weeks.
There are explanations for it, such as stress, lack of sleep or disturbed sleep patterns, although I have had episodes when not of these triggers seem to apply. Or maybe I just don’t realise and my brain is telling me otherwise.
Lots more about sleep paralysis in the links below.
I’m not taking this one too seriously….